Those frickin songs

I have songs associated with the events in my life. And now no matter how much I try, whenever I listen to those songs, I cannot not revisit all those things that happened and feel sad for myself and feel even more pathetic about my humdrum life.

Yes, another sad post is coming up. 

 It's October. Actually half of October is gone too. Daylight saving times are about to kick in and you know what is still here in my life? Yup, you might have guessed it. Depression. Yeah, I had many things to look forward to this year, Mini's birthday being the biggest. But that's gone too. I didn't ask to be born. I'm too afraid to end my life and apparently I'm too young to just drop down dead.

What a meaningless life I have. Absolutely no purpose. No goals. No future.